Jessie J backing vocalist inspiration - Gotta Be True to Yourself

There's a pureness in their voices I can not put into words and from I first heard this - I was enamored and played it like 50 times - no breaks! And they inspired this....

Days seem a haze
lack luster
lost the glaze
dreams replaced
by issues faced
monetarily no gain
sense lapsed
loved a fool, fool left
the only thing that went right
hardened by love loss
lovers lied
could fill stadiums with tears cried
tried to change
built a wall...
       but I urge you
let it crumble
let it fall
you were meant to be
strong
not stone
don't let hardships in life
crush your soul
you were meant to be
the best version
       of who you are

I've heard this song before, and I loved it then but it's like the combination of their voices bestowed a gift of clarity right before me.  As most of us often do, in navigation of this crowded yet lonely world, we try to find our footing.

We dream.
We aspire.
We work.

Sometimes it feels like it's going no where. It feels like you're climbing an active volcano with bricks on your back. And just as you feel like those bricks can get no heavier - you are given another load. I understand. I get it. But in order for you to get where you are supposed to be you have to weather this journey. When I discuss my discontent with my best friend sometimes he seems so insensitive. He's like well you know what you want, you have to do it - put in the work. I wanna say shut up and tell me, "there there - you're right. it's okay." However, I understand that sometimes I need to hear those things so I can refocus and just be the best of myself. I can't allow people's actions to dictate who I am or who I become.

I am a work in progress, but I'm not hiring - God's got the job!

I'm Wayyyyyy Up - Blessings [CLEAN] (ft. Drake)

I have issues, but I'm blessed
I have problems, fears and ailments but I'm blessed
Some days I'm a mess
But like Alicia Keys I put that S on my Chest
I'm still blessed

Sometimes life becomes a tougher journey than I feel I can handle
Life more in shambles than the series Scandal
I feel sad, angry, confused
Remembering all the times I was used
I'm still blessed

Feel like I'm going no where
and going off a cliff the same time
working every darn day
but can't save a dime.
I'm still blessed

Feel like I'm going backwards into quicksand
can't stand - no escape plan
handcuffs would be more freeing, redeeming
I need a change but no sight of it revealing
I'm still blessed

Blessed and Thankful!


Many aspects of our life may be on target with goals we've set but then there's that one thing that won't match up so it haunts us.  I understand those feelings,  I get it.  But let's not forget that no matter how bad things seem we are truly blessed.

I remember listening to a preacher saying that you will be blessed, you're blessings are coming in a form of a new job, a new car etc...and I thought about this.  I thought we become jaded and disregard the other blessings.  Blessings happen throughout our daily lives but that yearning, that inevitable yearning for more (which is fine in some regards) we don't take the time to acknowledge the fact that we woke up, we saw, we placed our feet on solid ground, we took a bath, we probably were able to kiss our mother, held the hand of a lover - those are all blessings, think of how losing anyone of those examples would take away from your life.  So this post, the above poem - it's all just to give thanks.

Thank God I'm so blessed.

Electricity

Short but sweet. Like me.
A little poetry.